Friday, April 06, 2007
blog again la.nothing to do this good friday. as usual, so much for a good friday. babe promised to bring me out and play today. but in his smses he got impatient and started talking rudely.so i shootback at him and scolded him. then he suddenly say he dunno what came over him, dunno what to do, and asked me g over to his place. being VERY pissed, i went over la. then i went thre, the was crying saying stuff like i dun wan him and all. that i always yell and him and all. 3 hours we thrashed everything out with each other, with lotsa tears, losta shouts and lotsa pain. well so much for my good friday. it was as if to him, i started it all, and it was my fault to want to end it too.i love him.but why am i doing this to myself? neglecting my studies? defending him wen my parents and teachers start complaining? changing myself just to suit the needs of his friends so that they can accept me too? putting up braces fr him? crying day and night wanting to kill myself for him? isn;t he being to selfish to blame me now? sigh. it's starting to hurt.
babe, it's starting to hurt.i dunno whether the promises u made today were real but i'm glad u put the ring back onto my finger.i choose to believe u and i hope it'll be the LAST time that things like this happens again.please know that i love u oaky.
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