Sunday, April 08, 2007
sigh,don't know what's come over me but ya,getting all emotional today.i had many many laughs with mei today in e car listening to music and making her talk crap and flooding her with my nonsense. LOL. most of the time i was listening to 'What Hurts the Most' anyway. looking at the lyrics i written so nicely on my notebook, i wanted to cry so badly.
yes it's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go, but i'm still being strong,facing it like i'm supposed to.but i can't help to feel like crying,to miss u everything a song is in my head.somehow it seems everything is related to you,you.i can't help feeling that i'm such a selfish bitch.i never treasured you when you were forever by my side.and now that u're gone, i want you back,i want you back desperately.i dun want u back as in i dun want u back but i want you back.SIGH.
does anyone understand?
it's hard lving with this regret.if i could ever do it over i would take everything back,trdae it all away,get back all the words tt i;ve said in my heart and never let him be spoken.but never.you stopped visiting my blog anyway.u rejected the countless times i wrote letetrs to you.you told me in the face that u don't need me in ur life anymore. what happened to the other you.u wre once so gentle.never angry.never rude. wher did all the "i'm sorry.don't be angry le k?i know that i've hurt u deeply.i really regret hurting you..it wasn'y what i intended to do..i was trying to ask u tt day if u were willing to be my gf..but seems like everything didn't work out well.alll i need now is for you to be in my lfie again. like i said in my blog, my life's only perfect with you.and i mean it. sorry i kicked u outta my life. i need you. yes i do.' or the "ok.that's all i need to know..thanks again for being the girl i loved most, the girl who made me cry, the girl who brightened my life.at least u like me. that's enough for me. (: this is the first time a girl whom i love, likes me. and i'm really thankful for that, for you. i don't i can love another girl so much in my life again. so i shall stop here. ur my last stop angel..my last."
i'm so troubled.terribly troubled.SIGH. i miss you still.
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