Thursday, May 03, 2007
in school shopping online with jacQ again. ARH. they just dun wanna ship overseas. DANG.
well today was another big misunderstanding between the 2 of us. quarrelled again, and it hasn't solved yet. should it all end now? i dun wanna hold on too long..before i get too hurt and do stupid things that won't please anyone, anyone including God. SORRY SORRY.
i'm such a jerk. i don't blame you guys for leaving me one by one, but can u at least tell me what i've done wrong as your friend? i've been there haven't i? i've not neglected anyone of you still constantly send smses to check up with u guys to make sure everything is okay. but why are u all still jsut leaving one by one. then leaving me with no clue, and all alone. arh.shit.emo time. still in school la can.. -.- i dun wanna emo lest later ZX quarrel with me again. wasn't easy trying to talk to him but we're back to normal. well below normal, but at least we're talking. *phew*
now i just hope things will be alright between the 2 of us so at the very least i have something and someone to hold onto. u all say break up break up i also want to, but i'm afraid. cos if break alerasdy then i totally have nothing else. noone to lean on, no one to go out with. it's as ifin my life he's a routine already. dun have him, like cannot function properly. though i end up getting hurt and all i can't help it. SIGH. anyone of you understand?
anyway friends, those who left and those considering to leave, i'm sorry. please let me know what wrong i've done.
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