PGC and BROandy spoke to me ytd with regards to me and babe's relationship.
made me take a rest from being an SP for couple of months.
and apparently trying to break us up. but they always say like their 'not forcing you'.
BULLSHIT. PLAIN PURE BULLSHIT.
it made me cry for 2 hours, slashed my wrist just one more time and cried again for another half an hour when tham came to talk to me.
it's as if i'm just gonna be judged all day cos u know why?
i'm a failure. a bad bad SP. stupid useless girl. THAT's WHY I NEEDED THE REST.
you guys won't understand. if u're just here to judge me, **** off.
YES i did wrong. but thisDOES NOT make me any lesser.
I'M STILL god's leader, still God's precious child/
but maybe, just maybe, i'll never be good enough for the ministry again.

who even cares. for my own good?
CRAP.
do you even care?
NO.

i feel damn pissed off now.
feeling so betrayed and worthless.

and if YOU don't know the details, please DON'T JUDGE ME.



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