isn't it amazing how God works?

ytd in church random ppl just came up to me and ask if i was okay. i'm wondering, are they finally able to see that hte mask that i've had on is finally tearing apart? i hate letting people know that i'm weak. but sometimes, i just have to admit it. the whole of july has been terrible. (read archives for more info) .
but i need to thank God for putting me thru this, cos' i've certainly emerged a winner. (: and i believe though sometimes i might be just emo-fying and all, i WILL make it through. of course, i can't do it without these ppl in my life who stood by me this tough tough period.

thanks babe, for always letting me know tt there's someone who'll believe in me even when the ENTIRE world doesn't. and for accepting me JUST the way i am.
i can't believe i'm doing this but justin cheong! thanks a whole lot. can't believe after so many years u just suddenly popped by talk to me and rekindle the friendship we've shared since primary school!and thanks for 'taking me in' when i run away from home.*wink
brianchan(kor).needless to say, u've always been there for me. appreciate it when u go all out just to make sure i'm okay, even with the ministry breathing down ur neck. love ya tons. (:
for the sweet sweet letters and the gifts and the smses, thanks derek lee.u just hav eto be the sweetest bro i've ever had.for the encouragements and all, love ya.we'll stand under the umbrellas. *wink
and this is funny, but jeanette, thanks to you too.though we don't actually talk much or share much, but thanks for being there to tag me and sms me and talk to when i was at my LOWEST. without ur wise wise words, wont be this strong now. (:
bel and chel, yea we don;t hang out tt often now. but i always know that i have to lovables to rely on and all. (: i love u girls a million.
bestfriend!liying.man i still miss hanging out with you.after u dropped to NA, havent been spending time with you.but!i know i can always count on you to share my secrets and problems.thanks for being there for me!hang out soon k!study hard girl!
LAST BUT DEFINITELY NOT LEAST! brother andy! (: basically for everything. love love love!

and to the ppl who also need to be thanked, rachel(for the hugs), valerina(for the letters), henzy(for the words of advice u once gave), ben(that wise sms),clarence(for believing in me) and yanling(for everything) (:

i'm just trying so hard to stop pretending anymore.behind the masks, lives a different hannah, which might very well be strangers with you all.do take time to understand me okay? i'm already trying my best.
thank you Lord. (:

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