Wednesday, November 07, 2007
i'm angry :/ pretty much cos apparently this idiot has been discrimitating our Christian faith.
that aside today is the 1st daywithout books and letters and notes and all HURRAY ;D just slacking today MUAHAHA (: oh, and
praise God! tham had a testimony to share too, proves how wonderful our God is (;
ps: thanks for replying last night, though it was not so much of a nice sms 'what do u want me to do?' but thanks for replying. now u got me on my knees, tell me, just tell me anything.
more updates later (: just, bored :/
(edit-ed at 7.52pm)
stop ignoring me, stop pushing me to my limits, stop trying so hard to erase everything when u and i both know that we can't! and i'm not exactly glad that she's in the picture either okay! though i'm still trying my best to be super nice to her and still ACT like i'm her good awesome friend that would be there for her and blah blah NO I'M NOT! i literally hate her! and though i tell myself oneday i will delete all the msgs in my inbox, that i'll burn and tear all the letters u've sent apart, that i'l dump all the presents and drawings you given me ; i havent. i want to tell you that i'm over you. but as much as i want to say that, i just can' find the courage and the strength to. i hate how i always allow myself to be drawn to read those smses again and again, to flip through the letters and cards nd just stone at the presents and let myself go on a rollercoaster ride all over again. i sound like i loser don't i? but which girl can force themselves to forget a past that was so..bittersweet. DAMN! fagfagfag! take that.
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12:51 PM