Friday, February 22, 2008
JCWY: Thanks for that short sms session between us yesterday. It made things alot clearer to me (: Remember, i'm still waiting for Mr. Nice's return and a handful of surprises you promised me! I'm sure God will grant you the rest you need and you will become happy mr nice again :D
Alot of misunderstanding going on with who's who and who's what in the posts, so to make things easier i've used initials of the person's name ;D Saves alot of trouble! :D And the identity is clearer too!
Anyways last night, i really couldn't get myself to sleep. Don't ask why, i don't even know myself. It was like, so many thoughts, and my heart beat was still faster than usual and worrying bout alot of things again last night. Later on i'm going to sit down and come up with prayer pointers to pray for tml with my favourite YTSS people. I pray that God will reveal to me the different situation each one is facing and give me specific things to pray for! (: Also, to keep praying for myself and use God's words tor reassure myself and not to worry so much! x( Updates later! ;D The com is screwed and i'm using the com that can shut down any moment now! HOLD UP :D
{edit/ 6.05pm}
Thank you dan for sending me that song! Indeed God will make a way :D IT was encouraging so thanks dear! (: HAHAHA, the com is finally working again! I was working on my prayer pointers and flipping through the bible to find some verses with sister, but it turned into a camwhoring session! :D :D :D From these pictures i just realised actually we do kinda look alike! Spot the difference xD Not bad, so much we can do with a cybershot phone! ;D The blown up pictures are nicer, can see the artistic touch to the photo, but its not that clear in the collage luh ;( But it's still lovely :D :D :D And i gotta work tml and sunday. WHOAAAA x( It's airshow's public opening so dad wants me there half day. I'm going to be super drained when i reach church by that time tml and still have fuel! x( Saturdays supposed to be for me to recharge! NOOOOO, i dun wanna work! x( God, grant me strength (:
; I've got peace by the river,
i've got joy overflowing.
I'm trying to understand. Even if it was your fault to blow up and turn into someone who wasn't you, i won't blame you. I understand you're going through struggles of your own. I'm here, but if you don't want me around i understand. It's okay, it just hurts a tiny bit.
It's starting to feel awkward and just nasty. This feeling has been here before and its not a good thing to feel. The friendship that we've all put in so much effort and prayer into is crumbling? I don't want to admit it, but there's a strong feeling and sensing in the spirit that this time, the enemy is really at work; and i hate to say it, but if we continue like this he is going to succeed. I'm NOT going to give up in any way, so can you guys please hang on with me? I feel like i'm going to crumble anytime. I don't blame any one of you but it feels like it adds so so so much pressure onto me that i have to handle everything that's going on in my life and now in your lives too. I feel like i'm fighting this battle alone and i can't help but feel .. super tired, super worn out, super alone, super .. bad about myself. I've really done all i can, till the point i really don't know what i can do. Like ****** said, when will all of this be over? I've beenpraying, and that's really all i can do. My future is already uncertain and dim. But instead of being troubled over that, i stillhave to trouble over friendships and JCWY, who at the moment is still .. lost. Now you all too? Sigh, how much more can i take? I'm driving myself nuts already! x( Please, God take control.
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