Tired, like seriously. Class was seriously low morale-ed today. I guess somehow it all affected everyone, one after another. Came in dragging my feet, with a yawn almost every minute. Then it got Ade in, the Li Fen, then the guys and now the whole class is like :/ Arh. There’s still Acapella later, and i can barely open my eyes :/

Maybe like all of them said, it's time i chose to let go. Haven’t slept in 2 long days, thought about alot of things, and questioned God about why all of this is happening. We’ve tried t speak to him about God, but somehow he still refuses to accept it. Free will, free will. Yet this free will might just take someone dear and precious to me, to suffer in eternity. I know all this sounds crazy at this moment, but you’re not me, you don’t believe in the things i do. & if you do, you’d understand how painful it is. God, i’m sorry. Besides praying and warring for him to have the slightest belief, i will lift it up to You for You to handle. Whether or not he makes it, whether or not i would take it like it is, whether or not whatever happens, Lord, take control. Then again everytime i see the photographs, everytime i remember what happened and how we handled it, everytime i see the smses, there’s a burden on my heart. God, take it all away.

Gin dear, if you're reading this, thank you (: I will be strong, i promise.

To my special girl:(After rounds and rounds of crying, there's always a time to stop, and look at what you can do, to make the situation better. If there is a way, go all the way to do that. at least tat will make u happier. if there is no way to change the situation. make the best out of it. i know it's easy to say things, then to do it. and i can tell you exactly how it feels to have someone you loved dearly, in between life and death. But there is always a breaking point to something. Give yourself a pat on your shoulders, and say 'tmr will be a better day'. What you can do is to let him know that you'r there. hold him. and talk to him. be strong, dont cry. hospital is too dull to shed more tears. make it a brighter place with your lovely smile. and m sure he will feel that. he will feel your love for him. and he will be happy inside.. ps: you'r a strong girl, i'v always believe that. where's your laughter gone to?)

I LOVE YOU (:

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