& through tears and joy, i'll trust in you ;

Sunday, June 08, 2008

GOOOOD MORNING! Gah, dad woke us up early today. BOO! D: Slept late last night, was on the phone with a very bored tze who happened to be working through the night. Heh. Dinner last night was painful. We went to eat zi char and i was painstakingly trying to bite the chunks of meat and prawn and all. Urgh, it stayed in my mouth for ageeeeees :/ Blah :/

As they all say, 'beauty is in the eye of the beholder'. How many of us believe that? I do! (: Never did, but i think i accept it now. I'm settled and contented with the fact that i might not be good looking, i might not have the perfect body or the perfect smile or the nicest eyes and all the other things, but God created me this way and it's my blessing. Picture this, alot of times guys look for "hot/sexy/'chio' girls", then again - sure they would get all the attention the the world! But their characters? Sometimes, not stereotyping, their characters are a turn off. Snobbish and prideful, just because of how they look. I'd rather look hideous and have a guy love me for who i am - accepting me regardless of my temper, my emotions, my saliva when i drool in my sleep (lol not that i do! xD), my hair when i wake up, my insecurites and love me not because of what i am and how i look. How far can love based on looks go? I would be super insecure even more if i look good and i have a boyfriend. What if he finds a prettier girl and then dumps me? That's materialistic love. Nah, i dont like and i dont want (: God has already created that guy for me and He will lead me to that prince. No that prince might not have the shinest armour, nor the most charming smile, nor the biggest most shiny eyes, nor a palace of gold and etc but i know he'd love me for who i am ;D Yay.

"The true essence of a person cannot be defined by the senses;

What they look like, what they sound like, what they smell like,etc.

Discussing inner beauty and outer beauty, the main difference between the two: inner beauty lasts and doesn't fade as you get older. Inner beauty,

the essence of which a person really is, will go with them to heaven."

If we seek only for the external and the material just to fill a void in our hearts, ultimately when it all fades, aren't we still left alone with nothing inside, only feeling more empty and drained. I believe in true love, i still do. Self love! Really breaks my heart you know? :/ Gah. hey, wo ai ni ; and that matters.

Gah! Full dress later till around 230, then freeeeee (: If no date, then off to deslen's party in the evening and stuff (: Boo D: dont know what to get for him :/ Oh well, guys - super hard to buy stuff for them. I wanna shop! Anyone? D:

http://www.afo.net/hftw-lovetest.asp

Yooo! Try this :D Heh, my love language is words of affirmation and physical touch xD Hahaha, scoring 10 out of 12 for both ;D Yay, words and more hugs ;D

{edit 9.30pm}

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESLEN! :D

BBQ was gooood! :D Alot of food, alot of fun and alot of ppl! :D Let the pictures do the talking then. Went church for full dress for parents day, gawd the kids were SUPER DUPER cute! Gah, i want kids like tt someday :D After rehearsals went down serenes to have lunch, then went wait for bus @ Mad jacks. So we camwhored and camwhored, and camwhored somemore, making the birthday boy super sian-ed :D PHOTO TIME :D

OH HARPEE DAY :D Tze! Cheer up! :D seems like whatever it is about, i'm still willing to listen no matter what. smile, i dont like frowns (:

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