Well last night on the way home i did quite a bit of thinking. I was so glad i saw alison, janet and nathanael at my place when i got home, shocked. Haha, i got the hugs i wanted from all 3 and then continued to think.

Honestly, things have been going good if i refuse to think about the small setbacks over the course of the week. I feel super blessed. It's like i have everything i need and want. Let's disregard the material stuff, because they dont mean as much as what i have grapsed tightly in my hands. Friends in school like denise & gang, chong, bk, ger, classmates like daph, amanda, joops, martin and just all of them, songwei opposite the class, and Rhapsody fellas like Mag, Angel, and the rest of the girls; Church - girlfriends chelsea & bel, derek my dearest brother, delia, reuben, fabian and my entire cell, fuwei my fellow super animal, camp comm folks, dance & drama people, leaders, my ytss folks, janet alison and co. Out of school i have my bestfriend liying, david my twin, deqiang my ke ai. A family that though sometimes shakes, but still stays as a family. A sister i can rely on, parents that want the best for us, a brother that i know will make a difference. Isn't all of this enough? All the love i'm receiving from up above, is more than enough. Yet i've been blessed with so much more. Instead of focusing with b****es and b*******s plus all that has been going on; i have so much more to be happy about really. God has just dumped countless of positive people to remind me to be positive, and not let my emotions get carried away. Yet there are also those that i know i can rely on in bad times and definitely the good as well. I look back, people like fuwei and songwei, just popped randomly. One was acting with me as some fella that just drags people out to 'hell', the other caught my eye in the opposite class and the two of them just constantly dump alot of laughter and positive stuff that never fails to make my day and give me a huge push knowing how stupidly emotional hannah is - ever since. David another random one, friendster to then becoming my twin. Denise, from just being in the class and not even bothered by her, to her affecting and making such a huge difference in my life. People who are more seasoned like reuben, delia, derek, ying, chong and girlfriends, we only got closer and opened up to one another through adversities and the times that we shared being there for one another shoulder beside shoulder, hand in hand, and heart to heart. To think i was too caught up with so much of my shit that i really didnt see all that. So thank you, all of you. And thank You up there, for blessing me with them.

*in no particular order and sorry if i missed you out, it's just too image heavy. But u know i still love all of you (:

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I just came home from Acapella practice. Gosh, the day didnt start off right with math already. Then during practice just now we tried the Abba Medly and i did my solo. God i felt so bad about it. All the feelings of inadequacies flooding in. I mean amongst all the solo-ist in Rhapsody, i was a newbie :/ I dont know why Adrian even bothered to give me that solo and its the opening number! Oh God. Thank you fuwei for your encouragement, prayers and listening ear. This just isn't my day i guess. Super tempted to pon school tml, since Dad will be back tml and mom wants us back early and all that. Gah. I'm tired!