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I dreaded school again today! It's enterprise, i dont like the faci and it's MONDAY! D: Tired tired. But lucky Dad sent me to school, cos sister and joshua went to work for him today to clear mess for his new office. So thanks Dad! So once-in-a-lifetime thing. Then again, i wont be able to meet Bk for the whole day ;/ RAH.
Anyways yesterday, camp comm meeting. Very well done (: Pub's for the next 2 weeks are up! Highlight was when sister raine started us off by sharing our week. She said she sensed that in the 2 weeks that we didnt meet up, the devil was at work and struck alot of us pretty much. Well how true. As we shared on how our week went, my heart sank. I was last and happened to get the most emotional. We decided to focus on a short time of worship and releasing everything at the foot of the cross and asking for a time of refreshing instead of just focusing on planning with our humanly ideas and etc. Once the guitar came on, i started to tear. Then i started to cry. It was crazy. It was justanother room, another worship song, just the guitar, no good friends there what so ever and i just poured my heart out. I don't know why. I was so tired, of all that was going on in school. It's something i struggle with everyday. May just seem like nothing, but it was horrible. There was such a release, and we carried on with meeting as per usual, which was awesome, great time.
Headed to the airport after that to welcome the folks back. Hahaha, i felt transparent as usual but aunt gave me a warm hug that pretty much made me feel better. Dinner-ed and home-d.

School was still alright today. It was one of those days where its the monday bluez so everyone was pretty much not in the mood to fool around and so it was thank God for me. Highlights was definitely talking to ********* online. She made things seem to much clearer, a direction, a ear and a shoulder i can lean on. If the Lord didnt lead me to speak to her, i guess i wouldnt know alot of the things i know and can be sure of now.

Acapella! :D I sorta dreaded it today. I dont know why, i just didnt have the mood or drive. It was good. We did the mama mia medly that's 15 minutes long cos it's the closing number. Hohoho, guess what? SOLO ;/ Rats. Super worried that i'd not step up to it :/ And Adrian moved me to descan. WTH, descan. It's like higher than sop and i'm a sop TWWWWO, not a ONE. And to go to descan, it's like $%^&* :/ Okay hannah JIAYOU! Sing your lungs out! We ended liike at 9, late :/ Home-d. DIETING, no dinner. Yes, but i had like 2 mini drumlets. SIN.

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To you; I'm not sure if you even know who you are. But hey, you you might not know it, but have just caused the spirit to die down. From all we used to be, just because of what you've done, it suddenly felt like it was all gone. Everyday it's a constant struggle. I have all these thoughts in my mind that, i cannot seem to erase. At first i thought it was only me. Then i realised everyone's feeling the same way too. Attention? Perhaps. Stubborness? Perhaps. A blind eye? Perhaps. You might not know how big the effect it has caused on ALL of us. Stop breaking us apart. Sometimes it's hard to see beyond our masks. Can YOU see behind our mask that we plaster on? Smiles that we fake, laughter that we force. Stop treating us one by one like pieces of paper, when u use it, it gets full, and then u just throw us all away, one by one, without even telling us. Even the closest people feel the furthest, betcha didnt know that? It just merely makes us feel redundant. Like all for nothing kinda feeling. You dont think you've done anything wrong, or that u havent done this or that and stuff but hey. Wake up your idea. I want this friendship and do does the rest. In case u havent realised, we're turning our backs. But then again, you wouldn't realise because to you, everything seems fine cos you have everything you want by you everytime the 'season' passes. All or nothing, all or nothing.

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