Initial plans were to go cycling! Daddy put in many efforts to plan everything but the rain ruined everything. Daddy was unhappy when ahyi decided to change plans and go raffles town club to bowl instead. He was unhappy throughout, which made me unhappy too D: But bowling was fun, and the arcade-ing with sister & the rst was FUN :D Time crisis 4 :D

Dad sent me mom and mei to town to shop for meimei's jeans before i bring her to shop (supposedly so). We headed down to Lucky Plaza to shop for Levis. HAHA, mom must be crazy or smth, she bought me and mei BOTH a pair of Levi's and then we walked walked to Robinsons to meet aunty. Ying & her friend Tanya came over to look for us. We walked and talked abit with the adults a litle before we left them to go Taka to grab Macs while waiting for S. After wha seemed like ages& btching at all, S came. We went to look for Yings friend aft then we headed to FEP to shop a littl while waiting for Jr to come. Jr. came, we shopped, talke alot, laughed and had alot alot alot alot of fun on the way although it was just walking ard town. HAHAHA :D Camwhore! :D

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I dont know what's gotten into me. Every team mate and classmate have been coming up to me telling me to cheer up, asking me whether everything's okay, telling me i've been very quiet over the past 2-3 weeks; giving alot of sian face, even during presentations i dont smile or move as much like i used to. When posed with that question, i look at them and smile and go 'erm, i dont know leh, i feel fine' - which i really did. I don't know whats happening to me, or how come i've lost all the joy there used to be in me. & i really know how much this has taken a toll on the people and friends around me. I know hannah hasn't been hannah, but she's picking herself back - slowly but steadily.

明明知道当初的情形，却这么还让自己那么投入呢？原本以为没什么的，但海浪一来，我就被打倒了。珈仪啊珈仪，怎么搞成这样了？Never should have haboured the 'whatif-s' and those 'maybe-s', when i already knew where i stand. "'what if-s' and 'maybe-s', which i realised now that i really didnt need at all! It's like taking all my hope away, but knowing that actually long ago i shld have known that i shldnt be having that kinda hope anyway." 真是的。马还真不知脸长。Really thought it was nothing - what isn't to be wil not be. But it doesn't seem like that now. Didn't know i fell right into it with just those two words 'HANNAH LEE!' Triggered those tear sacs that jst went 'let me out let me out'. With thse words you answered every question in my head, whils breaking my heart a million times over. I called F*****, and was feeling disorientated. What a time, in class. I burst like mad, and i apologize to all my classmates, like joops, yiqi, jojo, naz, hakim and Martin & Songwei esp for askingyou to go away and not talk to me cos if someone did i swear i'd cry more. I wanted to hear it, yet how come i wanted u to stop and not go on. It was just funny that i stll had to smle and joke with u, brush it all off to be okay when it actually isn't. Alright, the mess is cleared. Time to clear up the broken shattered pieces of my glass heart. You, you happy now? All yours. Take it, and vanish please. Lord, heal me. Surrender. My heart is going going, gone away.