Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Oh great, today was a much better day than yesterday was (: Maybe because today went for ice cream at Swensens and was excited all day long for that! Morning was well made with Jr's, S's, Ying's and alot of other people's great msn messages and all of that (: Comms was easy today too :D
Went for swensen's after school, which was pretty good. What can i say about ice cream and the company? Headed home after that, which is about it.
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You know, i really do feel proud of you. Mei told me some stuff & i was relieved, happy and mixed all in between. And then God spoke, through various ways, through different people. When i heard the news, i thought, when's it going to be my turn? P** has been pushing me, along with leaders and all. You really dont know how much influence power you have over my life. I always toldyou i looked up to you, and i always will. Your call sorta reminded me of my own call over my own life. That was when i started to get emotional. I realised all along i was just doing what wld please the leaders, what they called me to do. Running away, refusing to face up to God's calling, finding excuses for myself to get it over with. I felt so compelled in the spirit and looked up sister ****** offline and dropped her msgs and told her about how i felt. Without further detail, i told mei i had to talk to her & my emotions got a better of me then. It's never been so loud & clear, the call over my life, has resounded. Make or break. Time to stop running on my own strength, trying to achieve with my own abilities, and rise up - just has He has called me to. Not an easy journey, ep when i know what the costs are. But like justin said, give your best to Him, and He'll plan this all out for me. & i know I'm not alone. Together with F, R, D & alot of my other friends, i know i'm not alone for sure. Plans to prosper & not to harm, a call to be used to impact more lives just as my life has impacted. No more running away, no more letting the enemy steal and rob me of my joy - time to face up & realign.
Justin, Xun & S, thank you for being there. Every heart felt word spoken, is kept in my heart.
Hannah knows that you're there for her every step of the way, knowing that i'll get the support from you all and making sure i'll make it through this period. Thank you love loving hannah, even when shes at her worst. All of you - i love you.
*ps: i'll commend you for reading thus far. It's a post needed to organise my thoughts, apologies.
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