Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Does it make you feel better now that i've cleared (well at least i tried) things up and boom, we're back to not talking. This is what i mean. Who knows anymore? Because i dont.
On a different SEPARATE note (sorry i need to make this elaborate or people will go thinking its them and all that -.- ), i'm glad there are people God placed in my life to make me see things i wouldnt be able to see on my own. After talking with *******e, *****e, and ****e (thank you VERY much), it seems i've come to a conclusion - to realign, not just for my sake, but for us. I dont want to hinder myself from rising up and growing more and neither do i want to cause you problems. Seek his kingdom first! (: I needed those talks, and those directions, those questions, the rebuking in love and those reasoning to justify what i should do. And what all 3 of them said makes sense. Leave it to God and if it glorifies Him, He will make it good; to check my heart and know that in all things, the feelings doesn't matter because at the very end, i love him as a friend and will always do so. And so, cool off. Guess so far i've done well, it's all normal - up to you to believe me or not (: I'll let go, and let God. Let's work on this friendship together alright? Don't want to let it affect me ultimately and i don't want to lose the friendship i so treasured in the beginning (: But please, all i ask is for you not to treat me any different, because that's what affects me. Live right for God, cos i dont want to get my head knocked!
And the truth is always something,
You would never know is true.
I guess I can't deny it;
Hello friend.
& Let me believe in this feeling for the rest of my life.
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hannahlee