Saturday

God really moves in ways we cant imagine or expect doesnt he? Yesterday was once again another usual church service. Going for cell, leading grow, going for service with the same people. Message was about serving God through ministry, altar call was ministry too which wasn't relevant to me. But P.Andy suddenly asked all the SPs to gather forward and allow the leaders to pray over us. I just went, cos i was an SP, thinking 'okay, pray and recieve, thats all.' But our God is a humorous God. He moved just when i didnt expect him to. Sister viv laid hands on me, holding me close to her tightly with both hands around my shoulder and starting praying. Though i havent told her much, somehow she knew exactly the burdens i've hidden so deep inside that somehow i even forgot about them. And then i started crying, with a sense of release that felt good, a sweet surrender. It was like she felt my insecurities and fears, at the same time my heart's cry and desires. Then brother titus too came, i dont know him at all just a hi bye thing, but yet again he too spoke words and clicked in my spirit. & thank God for moving in my life again. I will go, wherever you lead i will follow.

so take me as you find me,
all my fears and failures;

My sunday

Headed down to church early in the morning, wanted to meet sister kassey to get my slacks and cap from them, and meet kwok to go down to PL together and all but sister kassey last minute told me she cldnt be there and only able to meet me ard 2 plus at PL to pass me the stuff. So as usual i bummed around and Manna with the usual - one very high on cheap thrill fabian, one sian xian, one dead nathanael( too much L4D), one normal sister i see everyday and one alison.
Photoshoot number2! :D HAHA :D It was fun, but cant say it was better than the first because i only got to take 4 photos! HAHA, i cant release any though it's for the June event flyer, egggcited :D

Well surprisingly it a breeze, ended up being the artistic director for the photographer and his assistants who were not at all professional. They cld comment and say that the pictures were dull and lacking but cldnt do anything about it. I had to step into the picture, start screaming random things, get the guys into character and all. Things like 'start laughing!' , 'lock the eyes on the camera!', 'point!', 'arch more', 'whoa that girl!', 'shocked, rah!' , 'passion give me more!'. HAHA, helping them think of poses and all. By the end of the day i was the only one able to say anything and it went pretty smoothly. I got my shot aft only 4 times so it was alright. The photographer said want to sign me! HAHA, my ego today super big, he praise me till i flew :P

By the time we finished shooting it was like 5 plus, still had to go up to the Summit to do my scene with the waiter whom i found out to be thiam kee, someone i didnt really know. And looking how brother kaf demonstrated how i was supposed to really flirt and tease the waiter, for the first time in my 'acting career', it was awkward :/ I I kept apologizing to him and thank God everything was alright.

Well school's starting tomorrow. I'm excited to see what God's going to do in my life in the new year new semester, with a different bunch of people; But at the same time i'm really freaking out after remembering what happened at the orientation when i was in year 1. STA people can come across as some of the most friendly people, but at the same time extremely loud people. I remember in orientation, i felt out. People were dancing shamelessly, they talked words i didnt exactly want to hear, they had mindsets as open as i-dont-know-what, and some are just snobbish. I was really out of my element back then, remembering also how i smsed sister eileen to tell her about how i was struggling with this 'hell-on-earth' thing. I dont want to be placed in an environment like that, but at the same time wanting and hoping and KNOWING that God will do His great work. Let go, let God; Amen. I'm just feeling really insecure and afraid now.




jiayou, superman.

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