Saturday, May 02, 2009
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I thank God. Pastor Gary came to preach today, and it was something i missed alot. Not him, but the warring spirit he carries along with him. Once again, he spoke a word that hit many of us. I havent seen such a crowded altar over the past year. It was'nt the soft i love you you love me lets emo and keep trusting message i've heard over the last 5 mths, but the GO FOR IT, RISE UP, SNAP OUT OF IT, MOVE ON and let go kind. The pretty much in-your-face kinda message. I missed the kind of fervour PGC has when he preaches. & i was blessed by his message, as i always am(:
I thank God - for friends around me that i can brawl my heart out to. We had a good cry together, encouraged one another, supported one another and lloved one another. Thank you guys, let's keep it up because like i reminded you guys, we're all in this together i promise (: Love you.
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1st May 2009
FIRST OF ALL HAPPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST PASTOR ANDY :D
We headed over to Sentosa today to celebrate his birthday! We being - me, my sister, janella, ariel, abel, eugene kwok, changjie, eugene teo, fedrick, barnabus, adriel, fuwei, brenda, chetwin, sister raine and pastor andy himself :D Well, me and mei wanted to get a good nice even tan first, so we left house at an early 9.45am only to reach a madly crowded vivo/sentosa at about 10.30am. We fought the crowd and finally reached Siloso beach, which was less crowded cos i think it was under renovation. Stripped to a spag and shorts, and down at the beach for a short while before finding many cute dogs and started playing with all of them. They so cute, trying to learn to swim so their owners threw them in the water to dieeee. Moomoo was poor thing, never liked to bathe orswim, then the owner just throw. But it was so so so attached to the owner that it wouldnt swim up shore, but panick and stay close to the owner despite in the water struggling. I picked him up to hug and he was shaking like maddddd D:
I started to get hungry so we left after 2 hrs there arleady, went 7-11 to get food and drinks. Stupid blood pressure and the maximum heat, i felt giddy and almost blanked out once i entered shade. I wanted to throw up and all, so i just sat outside 7/11 to wait for meimei to get food and drinks :/ We headed to Palawan after lunch to prepare to meet the rest who'd be there at 2. The sun there was so much worst, we tan-ed a little more then went to change into t-shirt and went down to meet Jelly and Ariel who were the first to be there. I rested awhile and recovered a little more, then the guys came. We played games and all that, and my team won 2nd round :D YAY, slurpee for all! :D The 2 forfeit teams had to go into the water, then roll around the sand, come back and report ' Mua Chee's reporting! ' HAHA :D I had the whole process video-ed down, MUAHAHA :D
After that, they went down to the water to cool off and wash their sand off. Jelly and I didnt' wanna get wet. Okay, just make that me - jelly couldnt. We sat on the rocks like mermaids. (quote jelly)WE ARE COOL LIKE THAT, boyah!(: / But God is funny, the more you dont want, the more he makes you do it and experience it. HAHAHA, okay that was my own nonsense. So anyways they were going upshore to play captains ball and i was left stranded on the toop of the rocks. So Fuwei gave me a hand down those oh-so-trecherous-rocks and after i was safely on the sand, he backed away and i walked slowly but not very steadily. Apparently, some slippery mouldy moss filled rock was hidden beneath water half burried in the sand. I slipped, and fell - so bad right in his face. Embarrassing TO THE MAX CAN. TOTALLY DRENCHED now, and fuwei just stared in disbelief and laughed ttm while coming to my aid - then the rest dunked him. HAHAHAHA! sweet. Then i helped jelly down, and slipped again. I think i slipped total of 3 times -.-
After a good sharing and good game of captains ball, we went to wash up and head to habourfront the coffee shop for dinnneer, alison & nathan joined us (: Went to vivocity rooftop balcony to chill and had a heart-to-heart talk with jelly, ariel, my sister and alison while i think the guys had their own HTHT with fuwei. Probably one of the best HTHTs i've had this year :D I'm glad we managed to share from our hearts and encourage one another in love and all that (: We had our little circle of trust and kept what was within that circle, within the circle (: I love all of them ttm (: So then we headed home via a long bus ride from habourfront alllllll the way to cck :/
YEP SO ANYWAYS, IF U'RE WONDERING, i'm burnt ALL OVER. From the lips, to the nose, to the arms, legs, shoulders and back. Argh ;/ 11am-6pm; a good 7 hrs of unhealthy UV rays.
Extracted from
jelly's blog;
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"Boys are complex creatures who are really hard to read. Love is even more complicated. But I guess it's a learning process.
Sometimes what annoys you the most when the person you like just is
completely oblivious to the fact that what theres someone who cares no matter what. It's a cruel game we play each and every day. "Does he know? Is he thinking of me? Does he feel the same way?", it keeps bugging us non-stop because we just want to be loved by someone who we love. We humans all crave for acceptance and love, and it
sometimes mean having someone to know how we really feel about them and feel the same way back. It burns within our hearts, it kills our self-esteem at different points of time because it is just so annoying - that the guy that you have a crush on, simply just doesn't know (or rather we dont want him to know)
Sometimes you wonder what guys think love is about and what their actual intentions are of hurting girls so much. Why can't they just open up their eyes and see what is really in front of their eyes? Is it really that hidden to their man-brains? Because I thought that it would be obvious enough for a bat to see.
The 4 of you, don't let this distract you from who God is okay? (: don't be emo and think that you're not good enough or that you don't stand a chance. God's timing is perfect, so when the perfect guy walks by, it is forever. I actually never really told anyone that before, so be blessed(: I hope we could do that again, soon?(: "
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Thank you jelly (: I'm here telling all four of you too, that you're good enough. We all are. It doesnt matter if we're less pretty or less skinny, or less cheerful that this other girl - because we're beautiful in our own ways yes? Who cares if a guy can't love us for who we are now? I know someday we'll ALL find someone we can share our hearts and lives with - knowing that he wont hurt us like how some of them guys did. And yes, God's timing's perfect. Take care of the things dear to God, and He'll take care of the things dear to us, remember? (: Love you all, and yes jelly we can have that ANYTIME you want :D really want to thank alll 4 of u for last night, i felt alot better (:
/wished you knew, that ..
after 9mths and counting, i still cant let you go;nevermind.
10:27 AM
hannahlee