It was a beyond-great saturday. Though only half the cell turned up for cell today, it was a great time of sharing - i really felt like there was a breakthrough today. I told them my heart for the cell, that i didnt want us to build walls around ourselves. Though yes we're a new group, we need time to adapt and get to know one another; but i dont want us to stop trying and stop having faith and committing ourselves to the growing of this cell. I was touched and moved at how some of them really tried their best and supported one another even as we were really honest about things and im still believing that God will even grow and lead this cell into a new season! (:

Service was just great too. It has been awhile since i just sat in the chapel to enjoy God's presence. I didnt know the message preached was so relevant & i didnt know ive grown cold and numb myself to certain issues in my life. There was an altar call, & i struggled to respond. But God as usual, spoke to me where i was even as i broke down. Big thank you to all the prayers from sister esther, sister vi, fabian, nat & comfort from delia. I can't tell you how much God spoke to me through the powerful prayers. The leaders didnt know what i was going through, yet God never fails to use them to speak to me. Sis vi saw me in the dark, reaching out - but unable to see my hands. Stepping up - but unable to see my feet. I was putting up masks for people, trying to be strong for others and meeting expectations of leaders and people aroud me so iwouldnt disappoint them - & say im okay. I didn't even know i was struggling, because it's been such a routine that its become a norm. Yet when she prayed over me, something clicked in my spirit, as i allowed myself to be vulnerable. But i know it doesnt matter, because we're human. God will be my light; His grace will be my endless supply of strength and i am counting on God to restore me. Sis esther assured me of my call, that it doesnt matter what the world says, nor about my past - because God has called me. She rejected every negative word spoken into my life, she rebuked every lie of the enemy and made me realise that if God has brought me to it, He will bring me through it. Amen.


I said i couldnt, but God said i can do all things. (phil 4:13)
I said its cant be me, but God said "I have called you". (isa 41:9)
I said i'm not good enough, but God said His power is made perfect in weakness. (2 cor 12:9)
I said i'm afraid, but God said he will lead me. (isa 58:11)
I said i feel far away, but God said draw near. (james 4:8)
I said what about my past, but God said "i forgive you". (Romans 8:1)
I said it's tiring to keep trying to meet expectations & perceptions of who hannah is, but God said "i love you the way you are because you're made in my image." (Pslm 139:14)
I said i don't see the silver lining, but God said i've been called for greatness. (Jer 33:3)

God said, " I love you hannah. You're not alone because i hold you in My right hand. In this seasons learn to trust in me, I will grow you and you will bloom like a flower. You might not see anything now, you may feel you're always alone, but remain in Me. I will be your joy. "

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