But then again, you're just wondering. The best thing to do? Dont wonder at all. That's the safest bet, and that's my safest bet. No second thoughts about it, just living in that moment. Whatever happens happens, whatever that will happen, will happen. You'll leave when you leave, and i'll let go when i let go. It's all great really, the friendship we share, our golden silences - but i guess i'm still too afraid, in fact we both are aren't we? ; To take risks, to take chances of letting what we share come to nought like it did before. Keyword: before. So please dont blame me, i cant afford it. Maybe just maybe, i'll live in this lie forever. Closure will happen over time i guess. The truth always hurts, so hide it from me. & i'll always have your back, defending you, supporting you, caring for you.

"Sometimes, we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons and yet still love them even after all the hurt because well, sometimes and most times, we can’t pick who we love. And even though we know we shouldn’t love them, we do and we always will because there are just a small number of people in this world who will “get” us for reasons we can’t explain even when they shouldn’t and even when time has elapsed since we’ve last talked." - jeanettetham