Sometimes i really wished you'll think before you speak, or write.
I dont understand how you can be so inward looking at times, okay no, all the time.
It's been a few months now, and i'm sorry i had to 'break your heart' many times but i'm telling you again, no. It isn't about who i have in my life now, or whether there's a 'criteria' i've set for the people around me. No. It's about you.
I really hope you stop blaming the people around you for the way you feel because you allowed yoursel to feel this way. I don't know how you can go around telling me that it doesnt matter about how i feel about you, or how people use you, or how you can imagine things to be so, blown up. Matter of fact is, it isn't. There's a fine line between helping, and being taken for granted. I don't believe that the people around you and i are selfish. We ask a favour from people we think know the answers or can help us with what we need, yes or no. Yes. Well too bad you're so good at everything you do, too bad you've been such a great friend that everyone turns to you.
WAKE UP, those are good things for crying out loud. Can't you look from a different perspective to see that you are already valued and whta's why people come to you. Honestly what do you expect? Do you expect us to talk to you for a 10001 days, send u constant smses non stop just so that we can appreciate you? It doesnt work that way. Sometimes a thank you and a smile is you did. No one owes you anything. We all have different ways of showing our appreciation, if its not enough for you, i dont think we need to take the blame. You think too much, and no one owes you any apology. YOU think people are using you, YOU think people forget about you, YOU think peole don't appreciate you. It's all about you. Well it shouldnt be.
Service, blessing others - thats what i call it. Don't tell me helping others is in your nature and that you dont really ask for anything in return. You just proved your point that yes you want to be loved in return. I'm sorry but i have a life too. I treasure you friend, i treasure you and i've been wanting to make a difference in your life for the longest time because i know God placed u in my circle to be influenced. But i am just a friend, i have tried. I can't keep up with your everyday texts, and random tweets or how you demand so much attention from me. It tires me out when you rant everyday about how horrible life is and how you want to die. Death is a scary thing and you don't play around with death. I am human, and i get affected by negativity too. I want to help, but you put me in a position where i really don't know where to go. I've tried every single way, soft and hard. Tried to love you, be there for you, keep up with your needs, play along with you, sacrifice time for you - just as a friend. ___, i'm tired.
I don't want to give up on you, and neither does God. Please, don't drive me up the wall to a point where i have to let go. I've said it a 1001 times, but i hope this time, you'll see.

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