I think we take time for granted sometimes. We assume that we've got all the time in the world as young people to figure out what we want, play a little if you might, love recklessly and just, waste time. Unfortunately, i've learnt otherwise. Time flies, and once it flies, you never get it back.

As some of the folks would probably know, this is one crazy season. I feel like i never have enough time to do what i want to, to accomplish things, to resolve situations, to seek God, to feel & cry when i need to. I really wished i had all the time i had to think, to email people, speak to people, collect my thoughts, spend time with family and everything, all my questions answered, problems all gone the moment i wake up; but no. It isn't going to happen.

But i guess ultimately, i'm trusting in God's sovereignty. I know He's never failed me. He's bringing us on this thing we call the Faith game. A great big deal of it. It's always easy to tell others: trust God! Wait upon Him! He's moulding you! Yup, we all know the exact things to say, and how to react to people's circumstances. Right now, i just find myself standing on a fence, leaning forward on God's arms and just waiting for Him to tell me to jump, and then i'll jump freely, knowing that He's going to catch me. God's taking us on this journey, to rediscover our faith in Him and i really have a feeling like something great is going to happen. And through this, it wil be such a powerful testimony of how God's timing is always perfect, and how He never ever fails. His ways and thoughts have always been higher than ours. And it feels like this game thing, is like fixing a jigsaw puzzle. You just have to fix fix fix it, till you finally piece the final piece and then see the bigger picture.

Yet it hurts to see a loved one hurting. It hurts that you're in it with them, but can't exactly do anything more than just being there, you know? That very sick feeling of helplessness that no one likes to feel. You cry, but in the end, the problem still stays. The only thing i take comfort in, is knowing that i'm not alone, that there's someone else fighting alongside the battles, and that God has so much better in store for us.

So with my loved one, we're hanging on, and we're fighting. We earn the battle scars together, but those scars will also remind us of how God has sustained us and not cause us to 'die' in the battles. Scars are definitely better than death aye? There's hope, there's always hope, so long as He lives.

Lord if you're taking us on this journey, to play this game, we will submit in full obedience and not question Your perfect plans. Teach us to continue to keep our eyes fixed on you, and not give up running this race that will ultimately bring glory to You. I love sweetheart.


p.s my thoughts are so incoherent, i dont like ):

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