[copied and pasted from my tumblr]

Happy 365 days to you ken boy (: Heres to 365 days i wouldnt have had without you.

From the post yesterday about the whole argument, i now have a totally different concept of it and this is another step to growing into the woman God wants me to be in this relationship.

After the entire celebration was over, sister kimmy and i sent ken back to camp as usual. After he was off, we took a drive around our area and she offered to talk about stuff (this is how awesome his family is). I unloaded all of it unto her and being a leader and mature lady, she offered me alot of new insights that i feel like ive gained so much and understood things so much clearer.

As girls, whether we are simple girls or not, all desire to be loved and romanced in a way. But we got to face it that sometimes, every man has flaws, and i guess it just takes a little pacing, especially if we are going to be in it for a long term relationship. Yes every guy should take the effort to plan for special occassions, make the girl feel loved, be responsible lalalalalal, we all know the rules. But i guess sometimes when something goes wrong, we tend to forget all the good that they actually do and we decide to kick in to bitchy mode and pick a fight. And i am guilty of that, sometimes.

But i learnt that in a relationship, we should choose the battles we fight because that will go a long way. I intend to marry this man, fyi. And if we are about to pick any random fight, we will die, and we both dont want it to die. Compromise is neccessary because at the end of the day, kimmy reminded me that even the oldest couples married and all do have random alarm tones to remind them to 'sms wife'. Guys need reminders and different guys are gifted in different ways. They show love in different ways that are sometimes not what we would like to receive. And i'm not asking that we as girls just compromise, but as a couple, we meet halfway. I compromise abit, and you work hard abit. Every effort counts and goes a long way (:

Ken, is a great great great guy. He goes through things no one would have to go through. [censor stuff cos this is not a private blog unlike my tumblr] He really has overcome so many battles. Though he's still fighting some of the battles, but i know in the midst of it, thrugh how he reacts, how he carries himself, how people associate with him, he is an AMAZING guy. He may not be the best at planning amazing things and being all crazy romantic and stuff like that, but he is the most sincere trustworthy nice and kind guy i have ever met. He's responsible in his own way and has his own special way of making you feel secure in his simple love. While people in the army are paying one another for food, he doesnt even think of profit. While people are judging others, hes the first to lend a hand to give a second chance. While its hard to trust men and guys in our generation nowadays, he has the utmost respect for women and himself as a male figure. Tell me 3 times u see him with another girl, or 3 times u see him in a club, or 3 times u say u hear him swear - i will still trust him. If you know him personally, you will know what i mean. He.is.amazing. And i was assured of that fact when leaders who walk through this r/s with me tell me i've really met a good guy and for the fact that his own sister will say i am very proud of my brother and i think u've really got a good guy.

And so, i don't really care what happens from here. I dont really care if our first year anniversary ended good or bad, what matters is that i spent it with him and it's another year together looking forward, ready for new challenges, ready for new breakthroughs together.

I am really thankful for this guy who bothers to follow up on me with a call, and take time on this day to pray for us and commit back the relationship onto God who is the centre and who always had His hand upon us. I thank God that ken isn't one to pray for ME, but instead to pray for himself to be a better man, to learn, to grow and never pointing fingers at me for anything. I am thankful that he commits this whole thing to God because that shows how serious this whole thing is to him and i need to always be reminded of that.

It really is a happy first year. And i'm thankful, even for the little.
I love you ken (: